Pensiv-ity

Am listening to "Beautiful World" by Coldplay, a sad song where the acoustic guitar almost seems to speak.

It was snowing today in Leeds, and I was walking to church in a magic world of swirling white flakes. It was so strange because I was wondering what they were at first, whether some budding tree was being buffeted so strongly by the wind that petals were raining down, and then I continued walking for a bit and realised it was snow. I felt like I was all alone, a little statuette in one of those globes that you shake, causing teeny sparkly bits to float up and fall gently all around the centerpiece.

Wee Leon was saying something that really sobered me up today. He said that your friends and the people in your cell group won't remember what you say to them, but your life and your values will make the greatest impact on them.

Wee Leon said that our values are the things we make time for, and I was just thinking about what I make time for, and what my life revolves around, and was pretty shaken up to think that my life wasn't revolving around anything particularly important, and my values were mainly transient pleasure. I don't really know what to do about it though, I think I should make a greater effort to make time for my friends and especially for calling back home, because my family members could be the only people who truly love me unconditionally, and my friends are the people whom I should be treasuring and getting to know better.

Anyyyyywayyyy...

After church, Vincent cooked an amazing curry for us in under 20 minutes. We all hung around and ate as though we had not eaten in years, and sang Sunday School songs, fooling around. I remember laughing alot but can't remember what I was laughing about! :oP

Wee Leon has a really cute stuffed toy from "Monster's Inc", it's Boo's/ Scully's one-eyed bear. It's so cute and has this really sincere fanged smile. I couldn't let go of it for a long time and Vincent kept laughing at me hugging it to my chest.

After that we all went home and I had a long session of cutting the Dinner and Dance tickets with Andrew and listening to sad songs on the stereo. Sad songs played at night are particularly nice, and particularly apt, I think.

Am getting a little sleepy...and nose feels a little sniffly...

Good night.