Talking to Myself
When I was a little kid I used to think about the day someone would put a gun to my head and say, "Do you believe in Jesus?" and I used to be afraid that I wouldn't have the courage to say yes, but I also used to be afraid of what would happen if I did.
I used to have this funny feeling as a little kid of 8 or 9 that Jesus would come in my lifetime, and I used to ask my friend Eunice as we were walking along the beach on a Sunday School outing at that time, "Do you think Jesus will come when you're alive?" I remember her saying yes and I remember feeling a little frightened at that because I would imagine myself being persecuted and my toenails being burnt (I always dreaded the nails being burnt or being pulled off slowly bit).
And then when I was at Outward Bound School I learnt that there was nothing to fear but fear itself as I jumped off a five-storey high platform with a rope around my waist and found that jumping wasn't difficult at all, it was the getting myself to jump that was difficult.
When I was a teenager I was talking to an older woman and I was telling her about the fear that I still had (and I still have it now, at times) and she said very gently and with such an expression on her face, "Ruth, you don't have to worry whether you will stand strong in the future. Just be careful to walk with God every day. And when that day comes, you will be able to stand strong."
I guess many of the fears that I have about tomorrow and the future are really unfounded. And alot of them are based on my overactive imagination... and you know Ruth, you don't have to worry... when that day comes, you will be able to stand strong.
I used to have this funny feeling as a little kid of 8 or 9 that Jesus would come in my lifetime, and I used to ask my friend Eunice as we were walking along the beach on a Sunday School outing at that time, "Do you think Jesus will come when you're alive?" I remember her saying yes and I remember feeling a little frightened at that because I would imagine myself being persecuted and my toenails being burnt (I always dreaded the nails being burnt or being pulled off slowly bit).
And then when I was at Outward Bound School I learnt that there was nothing to fear but fear itself as I jumped off a five-storey high platform with a rope around my waist and found that jumping wasn't difficult at all, it was the getting myself to jump that was difficult.
When I was a teenager I was talking to an older woman and I was telling her about the fear that I still had (and I still have it now, at times) and she said very gently and with such an expression on her face, "Ruth, you don't have to worry whether you will stand strong in the future. Just be careful to walk with God every day. And when that day comes, you will be able to stand strong."
I guess many of the fears that I have about tomorrow and the future are really unfounded. And alot of them are based on my overactive imagination... and you know Ruth, you don't have to worry... when that day comes, you will be able to stand strong.
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That quote from the lady reminds me in roundabout way of my hotmail signature...
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People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered; Forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; Be kind anyway. If you are successful you will win some false friends and true enemies; Succeed anyway. If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; Be honest and frank anyway. What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight; Build anyway. If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; Be happy anyway. The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; Do good anyway. Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough; Give the world the best you've got anyway You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God; It was never between you and them anyway.
--Mother Teresa
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