Epiphany

Yesterday I was lying on my bed trying to sleep and failing because images of terrorism kept flashing into my head and my imagination was running wild as usual. I repeated this verse to myself: “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid, do not be discouraged; for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Although I’d taught it to the Sunday School kids twice and had made them memorise it, it hadn’t sunk into me yet.

Then suddenly I realised: God didn’t want me to be fearful. God wanted me to be courageous! God would not have shown me anything that would make me afraid, because He always gives courage. Many times when He appeared to people of old He told them not to be afraid. My wild imagination was not from the Lord because it was making me afraid!

It was then that I realised something about God’s heart. God always wants us to be courageous and He will not show us something on purpose to scare us for the fun of it. He does not play with us! So fear is not from Him at all!

When I realised that the fear in my heart was not from Him, I slept so soundly that night and woke up this morning to my dad holding my niece and my niece gurgling at the sight of my bleary eyed face.

Thank You for showing me such simple things. Cos these simple things are what I really need to know.