Heart Matters

Someone told me something lately that made me very angry, and I had to rebuke for the first time in a long while. It was the worst rebuke I had ever given to a person in quite a long time.

I also shared the gospel with him. But I know I did it more out of anger than of love. And perhaps I did it because I didn't know what else to do or say. I just pray that He will override all my wrong motives, and use my words anyway.

I sometimes find it so difficult to have the heart of love for other people, to see them through His eyes. And when He asks me to spend time with people and to seek them out and care for them, I sometimes feel so tired. Sometimes I feel as though it is easier to pray for them and not move out of my room and neglect my work. But love has also to be active as well.

To love those who wrong you isn't easy. Nor is it natural. Sometimes it is not even easy to love those who are your brothers and sisters in Christ. But love isn't a feeling; it is patience, it is kindness, it is humility. It's a sacrifice of yourself for others. It's wanting to make sure they are fed, wanting to make sure they grow, above yourself.

Because in the end, the only thing you have to make sure for yourself is that you delight yourself in Him. That is the only thing we need.