Thoughts

I always welcome criticism. I am always glad when people tell me how things can be improved, steps I can think about, suggestions. That's a kind of hurt that I can take and a kind of hurt that I welcome, because after that things can become better.

But there are kinds of hurts and doubts that are more difficult to take and more difficult to remove. I thought I had surrendered something to the Lord last week, but in reality I hadn't, because today it came back afresh with all the fresh hurt. This week I was telling Him that I only wanted Him, and thanking Him that amidst what He had taken away, He'd given me something better. But today I realised that I was still discontent, that I still had the longing within me for something else besides Him.

My friend's MSN nickname touched me last week It said, "I have so many felt needs, but I am going to meet my real need." Oh, although my heart is divided and discontent at times, I know that He is all I ever need.

Help me not to be so restless, poking around outside of your will.... Let me be so content with what you have given me, and only be dissatisfied with how little I know you.