Change my Heart...
Today I woke up at about 10 feeling very guilty because I'd set my alarm for 6:30 and had actually woken up at 5:30, opened my eyes, and promptly gone back to sleep. I have been trying to wake up earlier because there are so many things I want to talk to Him about. I want to talk to Him, every minute, every hour... during this period of time, there are so many things to do and so many burdens and confusion in my heart. I need to talk to Him so much more then.
My greatest real need is to have Him in my life. Without Him in my life, I don't know what to do. Without Him, I feel completely lost and empty. Even when I wake up at 10, I can't miss spending time with Him. I need to be with Him, because without Him I'm not complete.
A "little miracle" happened in my friend's life recently. Last night we were studying together in the library, and she showed me a little piece of paper clipped in between her foolscap. On the front it said, "Worried?" and on the back it said, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. - Phil 4:6".
She asked me whether I'd written it and stuck it into her foolscap, and I said no. It didn't look like the handwriting of anyone else in our cell group either. So we said it must be a miracle. A little slip of a comforting verse fallen from somewhere unbeknownst to us, at a time when it was most needed.
I pray that she will accept Christ soon.
I have been cold recently. Cold of heart. When people share things with me, when I see people I love and have been praying for, I don't feel anything at all. When people tell me their deepest hurts, their struggles, when I see my friends around me struggling for their exams, it doesn't move me to pray desperately with tears for them.
I need more and more of His heart and less and less of myself. Don't let there be any more of myself in this life. Just let there be You...
My greatest real need is to have Him in my life. Without Him in my life, I don't know what to do. Without Him, I feel completely lost and empty. Even when I wake up at 10, I can't miss spending time with Him. I need to be with Him, because without Him I'm not complete.
A "little miracle" happened in my friend's life recently. Last night we were studying together in the library, and she showed me a little piece of paper clipped in between her foolscap. On the front it said, "Worried?" and on the back it said, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. - Phil 4:6".
She asked me whether I'd written it and stuck it into her foolscap, and I said no. It didn't look like the handwriting of anyone else in our cell group either. So we said it must be a miracle. A little slip of a comforting verse fallen from somewhere unbeknownst to us, at a time when it was most needed.
I pray that she will accept Christ soon.
I have been cold recently. Cold of heart. When people share things with me, when I see people I love and have been praying for, I don't feel anything at all. When people tell me their deepest hurts, their struggles, when I see my friends around me struggling for their exams, it doesn't move me to pray desperately with tears for them.
I need more and more of His heart and less and less of myself. Don't let there be any more of myself in this life. Just let there be You...
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