Weakness

Yesterday's paper was very, very bad and I walked out of the hall with tears in my eyes feeling as though I'd thrown away my future. Now the future lies uncertain ahead but all I can do is to do my best for the next paper and learn any lessons that may come my way. If I'm given the chance to do my Masters', I'll try to be more consistent in my work, and if I'm not given the chance to do my Masters', I'll have to accept this too, and trust that He will work for good in all things.

So many friends showed love and concern for me and I can't help but thank God for them. And as I study for this last paper on Friday I'm just going to do my best and sprint towards the goal with endurance. I can't regret past mistakes and I can't change things now. But I can still do my best in all things starting from today onwards.

I've learnt that I'm not perfect. Being a perfectionist at heart, it is difficult to accept myself messing up in any area of my life, but all the more then learning that I'm not perfect, I can experience His grace. I really don't know what is going to lie in the future now, but I know that He is still so real and I know that He is my God through good times and bad. Although I can't feel anything right now, I know that He is real and that He is with me. And He will never leave me nor forsake me and I am just going to believe it with all my mind and heart.